Tame the Crave

“Mom,” my daughter questioned me, “where is your sweet tooth?”

Oh, boy.

There’s no doubt my kids know I have a sweet tooth. It’s my most unrelenting food craving.

For the past ten years it’s been convenient to blame all my unhealthy cravings on pregnancy and nursing (5 kids in 6&1/2 years will do that to a woman).

But now my youngest is two, and those excuses are catching up with me.

So, I’m jumping on my second bandwagon for 2016 –  health. (Read about the other bandwagon I’m on: Love Quest)

Generally speaking, I live a healthy lifestyle. I actually like to exercise, I don’t smoke, I drink very little, I don’t consume much caffeine, etc….

But.

Food.

During more active times in life, my bondage to my taste buds has been of little consequence. But the ugly truth is that I’ve been out eating the treadmill.

Conviction about my eating habits has been brewing for many years. I’ve just shoved it aside; liking food isn’t that big of a deal, is it? I could be succumbing to worse habits, right? If this is an area I struggle, it’s no the end of the world. Besides, it’s the inside that matters most.

But for me it goes beyond liking food. My enjoyment of food carries me to the point of eating more than is necessary, to hiding my consumption, and ultimately to the point of guilt and shame. It is an issue of what’s going on inside. And it just happens to have the undesirable result outside plumpness.

Food is a pleasure that battles against God’s rightful place as my truest source of satisfaction and delight.

So it’s time to Tame the Crave.

It’s about more than weight loss. It’s about obedience and victory over my wayward flesh. It’s about loving God with my body, soul, spirit, mind, and strength.

I’m using Lysa TerKeurst’s book “Made to Crave,” as a guide along my journey. Would you like to read and discuss with me along the way? I would absolutely love it! We need each other in this pursuit of holiness! (You can take a look at the book here).

Tame the crave. Claim the victory.

I commenced my healthy eating plan on January 4th. And I’ve already faced more temptations than I would like to admit.

Here’s an excerpt from my journal regarding one of those temptations:

It’s the end of day two on my healthy eating plan. I’m not feeling the greatest – bloated, gurgly tummy, a little weak, and tired. 

Faced a temptation when Cyrus and I went to the movies tonight with another couple. She brought perfectly portioned baggies of M&Ms to share with us! UGGGHH! I would love to munch and watch. I politely refused and instead sipped my contraband tea. This small victory feels good on the inside. Hoping my ‘outsides’ feel a little better tomorrow.

 I know the temptations will keep coming, but I also know that my self-control muscle will get stronger the more frequently I resist the cravings.

My Healthy Eating Plan

My plan may look different than yours. It’s based on eliminating the unhealthy things that I crave the most: Sugar, cheese, and refined carbs.

I have completely eliminated all sugar (including honey, maple syrup, etc…) for now. Instead I’m indulging my sweet tooth with healthier fruit options.

I have also said no to cheese. Not all dairy products, just cheese. I still eat yogurt and sour cream because I don’t have a problem eating those in moderation. It’s the sultry, salty, melty allure of rich cheeses that beckons me to keep consuming. Someday I might eat small amounts of cheese again – if I have reached a place of self-control.

My final sparring partner in this fight for health is carbs. Not all carbs, just those delicious breads, rolls, pastas, and pastries that are oh so delicious, and oh so addicting, and oh so just like sugar to the body. I’m still eating some healthy grains like oats, quinoa, brown rice, and whole grain bread. But, I’m limiting myself to a small amount for only two meals a day.

The Part That I Don’t Want To Share

My weight. It’s embarrassing. I know some might not bat an eyelash at my weight. Others might be shocked and disgusted.

I hadn’t weighed myself in probably five months, but when I when I stepped on the scale to get an idea of where I was starting my journey, I though it would be about the same. Nope. I thought I weighed about 155 – more than I would like to, and squeaking by as not quite overweight according to the BMI.

But I was in for an unpleasant shock. Sometime during those five months I managed to pack on another nine pounds! Even while exercising! I’m positive it was the holidays that did me in.

So there I was, on that Wednesday two days into my healthy eating plan, weighing in at 164. My heaviest in over a year.

I guess I need to tame the crave more than I realized.

My Goals

My first goal is to break free from the control food has over me. I want to seek God for comfort, pleasure, and help rather than food.

My second goal is to lose about 24 pounds. I want to be in a solidly healthy place, not teetering in the edge of overweight.

So there you have it.

There is a part of me that keeps telling me I’m crazy for sharing any of this with you. But, if it can be encouragement for any of you who are prompted to tame your own crave, then the vulnerability is worth it.

What You Can Expect

I am going to document my journey through this blog. I will post about the internal spiritual and emotional aspects of my pursuit of victory as I process them and work my way through the book “Made to Crave.”

I am also going to weigh in every Wednesday to track my progress. I’ll share that too.

You can expect to see more excerpts from my personal journal – I want to keep the struggles of this fight real.

Each week I plan to submit a thought/discussion provoking question. Join in the conversation!

Again, I would love all the support I can get, so if you want to go through the book with me or hop on your own healthy eating bandwagon, let me know by leaving a comment or sending an email. Let’s Tame the Crave and Claim the Victory together!

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14 thoughts on “Tame the Crave

  1. Oh Kim. I want so badly to join you and yet am so overwhelmed with shame and guilt over being over 200 pounds over weight. My sin of gluttony and disobedience is killing me. If I were to write a book it would be called “Delicious Suicide: Drowning in the Quicksand of Obesity” because that’s exactly what I am experiencing. I write this to you here in public because if you can, I can. I have been going public with my gluttony, and therefore health, issue for a few months now. Reading your post here I am encouraged to keep going in the direction I have started because I hope it really does lead to a healthier lifestyle. One that will allow me to be the me God meant for me to be. And to do all that He put me here to do. It’s scary and makes me want to eat a pizza. Not a piece of pizza. A pizza. And maybe cake. Yeah, cake. I have Lisa’s book and workbook. I’ve had it for a long while. I have the dvd too. I even have the audio version of the book. I am guilty of gluttony. I am ashamed of my disobedience. Being 24 pounds over weight you will lose it and I pray you will be obedient to living a healthy lifestyle. You will succeed. You already have a healthy background. Needing to lose the weight of another human adult and their teenage son, I tend to get more discouraged than encouraged. So thank you for posting your Band Wagoning 🙂 I really needed the encouragement. Maybe I’ll go find those Made To Crave books and read them again. Btw, I still have the MTC magnet on my fridge. 😀 Thanks, Kim. I love you for doing this blog you’ve started. You are so very good at it. 🙂

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  2. Kim, I am also struggling with my weight. New year’s I weighed myself and was a whopping 180 the most I have ever weighed so me and our family has been eating healthier and now I weigh 176. I would love to go on this journey with you. How do I get a hold of one of those books because I need more healthy recipes. I want to thank you for sharing, and by the way when you say you hope no one reads this it peeked my curiosity and that is I read it:-)

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    • Desiree, I’m glad to hear we are in this together!! The book you can get on Amazon, but it’s not a recipe book, it’s Lysa’s personal story and spiritual encouragement for overcoming the grip of food. It addresses the heart issues – encourages us to find fulfillment in God rather than food. Let me know if you end up getting it! I’d love to work through is with you!

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      • I looked it up lol and yes that would be amazing to have a support group. You are an amazing person:-) Maybe we can give each other recipes too! Because it would be great to eat better and yes I like sweets too and used to just eat it even if I were full, very sad huh? But like I said this year I have been eating way better. My body is like, what is this? Lol:-)

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      • My goal is to read one chapter a week to discuss on the blog. Join the conversation! I’ll start posting next week. Also, since we live nearby, it would be great to get together face to face 😊

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  3. Hi Kim,

    Thanks for sharing. I would join you but I already have a support team. I have been on Weight Watchers for over a year and a half and have lost 30 lbs (most of that in the first 8 months), but I have about 60-70 lbs to go still and this journey has thrown a spot light on a problem I knew deep down already: I am a compulsive overeater with a vicious sweet tooth. Some time around Septmember one of my girlfriends at church reached out to me and invited me to join her and a few other gals to read Made to Crave and form a support group of sorts. We read one chapter each week and most of us share daily in a Facebook group things like healthy recipes, encouraging scriptures or quotes, funny memes, struggles, etc. We pray for each other and meet once each month in person to stay connected. In January we all started some major resolution. Most of the gals are doing Whole30. I am sticking with Weight Watchers’ points system but challenged myself to take a break from processed sugar for the month, with only a limited portion of natural sugar each day (1/2 TBSP of honey in my evening “ice cream” made from frozen bananas). This challenge is something I have never done in my life (not even for one day!) and never thought I could do! I have been shocked that it’s day 16 and I didn’t die from sugar withdrawals. It has proven to me that my daily life can feel normal without filling my day with treats and sweets. Even though my January challenge is a short term thing, my goal is to phase sweets back in with a healthier mindset: cake is for a birthday (not a birthweek), splurges by definition are occasional and reasonable, etc.

    So, I tell you all this to say I am right there with you! I am usually on the anti-bandwagon bandwagon, but this time the health bandwagon is a necessary one. Thank you for sharing your struggle and your plan. I find strength in knowing I don’t struggle alone!

    His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life through our knowledge of him who called us by his own glory and goodness. 2 Peter 1:3

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    • Wow! Thanks for sharing! It’s nice to hear from a fellow sweets lover 😉 congratulations on all you have accomplished so far! It’s very inspiring. It’s great that you’ve got a solid accountability group. I’ll be thinking of you when I have serious sweets cravings ☺️ I’d love to hear from you as you continue to meet your goal.

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  4. I appreciate your honesty Kim. I am addicted to food and I too feel it is hurting my relationship with God. I have used my extra 100 pounds as a wall to protect myself from relationships. I have the book you speak about, just need to find it and I am ready to crave God and not the food that is hurting me. I thank you for your willingness to be vulnerable, you are a beautiful example of a true woman of God.

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    • Thanks for sharing Tiffany. We are in this together and have God’s powerful resources. If you find the book, will you read along with me? I’ll read a chapter a week and write about it on this blog. I’d love to have you join the conversation and journey with me!

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  5. Kim Rettmann, you have no reason to feel shame! We all are on our own journey. You are a servant hearted leader for others. You have so many friends and family on your side as well as a very Big someone in your corner, oh and Cyrus also. So please continue to be there for all of us.Thank you for this Blog.

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